Original post February 11, 2011 – later reflections added
The following article came into fruition as a result of me thinking about writing a love letter to my children.
Putting my thoughts to paper with the intention of writing this love letter was magical. Recording the events as they arose in my memory was like experiencing them all over again.
Doing this reminded me of the importance of being present: our presence is a present we give to each other.
Now is all there is; all else is a mental projection.
I have come to realize that many memories are “lies” I tell myself—not because the events did not happen, but because, at the time, I held many unsubstantiated beliefs and did not have all the information. I was operating from the intellectual mind alone.
I am a multidimensional being, an expression of the Infinite. I am not separate from this infinite energy, from this awareness field that flows through all life, all dimensions, the entire cosmos.
I am like a droplet of water in an infinite ocean—and also the ocean itself. Without the droplet there would be no ocean, and the wave would be non-existent.
How I eventually became overly identified as just the droplet has limited what is possible for me in my experience of life.
It is up to me to recognize how I limit my expression by holding onto the way I’ve been taught to articulate. The words I think and speak create a picture, and it is me that is projecting this image upon the fabric of creation. I am both the projector and the projected, and also the foundational energy that animates it all.
So I ask myself: What pictures have I chosen—and which ones am I still choosing—to hold onto?
The Deeksha Evening
My thoughts turn to the previous night, Tuesday, February 10, 2011—a perfect winter evening. The air was crisp and clear as I waited to be picked up by two women I had just met the previous Sunday at Felix’s Yuen Method practice group. Synchronicity had it that we were all planning to attend the same Deeksha (Oneness Blessing) evening the following weekend in Kelowna. Fortunately for me, both of my new friends had homes in Penticton and were willing to pick me up on their way through Summerland.
Deeksha is like a prayer—an energy frequency blessing shared from the Deeksha giver’s open and loving heart to the receiver. The blessing can be given in person or over what appears to be a long distance. (Thoughts do not travel; there is no distance for the mind or consciousness.) We can also give Deeksha to ourselves. Many people have spontaneous realizations of Oneness during Deeksha.
The car arrived with not just two but three delightful women. I tucked myself into the back seat as we headed up the highway toward the Kelowna Library, eager to give and receive Deeksha.
You know those people you meet in life with whom you just click? This was one of those encounters. The woman in the back seat with me was an amazing lady named Maggie. She has a remarkable gift: she can “go into” the body and test for imbalances, seeing what is causing the body to scream in pain and what it needs to resolve the issue.
“How fortunate for me,” I thought, sitting beside this wonderful woman who had graciously offered to share her gift. Gazing into the body and seeing from the body’s perspective would be of such benefit to me. The intelligence that runs the Universe is amazing in the way it orchestrates meetings between those who need each other’s services.
Events had unfolded in my life to open space for the realization of Divine Love—the infinite field from which all life springs forth. My dream is to share this vibration of Love with others. It is in expressing this resonance that we can ease people’s misery. By helping people clear the heart, we expand their knowing of self. In this way, the brain remembers the language of the heart, the language of the Soul—our original light language, the language of Divine Love.
The violent events that caused damage to my emotional and mental bodies, and the subsequent brain injury, made it difficult to start any kind of business. Giving and receiving Deeksha has been deeply beneficial to my brain’s recovery.
Ihavesincerealizedthatgrowingaconventionalbusinessisnotinmybestinterest.Iamnotkeenonmakingmerchandiseofmyfellowman.I have since realized that growing a conventional business is not in my best interest. I am not keen on making merchandise of my fellow man.
Maggie and I chatted in the back seat, sharing our experiences. The more we talked, the more I felt a beautiful connection forming between us. I felt very fortunate and grateful for this encounter.
I had already begun opening lines of communication with my body. I had said to it, “I’m hearing you and I know you’re not happy. I have been neglectful, and the things I have been doing have caused many imbalances.” I had been asking for balance but was unsure what course of action to take. My ability to listen and understand my body’s language definitely needed an upgrade.
Now here I was, sitting beside this generous woman who could hear my body’s voice.
Inowseethatpainistheeffectofmisalignmentbetweenthespirit–mental–emotionalmatrixandmyinnerbeing(higherself,higherintelligence)andSource.Itistheresistancethatcausesthepain.I now see that pain is the effect of misalignment between the spirit–mental–emotional matrix and my inner being (higher self, higher intelligence) and Source. It is the resistance that causes the pain.
The drive from Summerland to Kelowna seemed much shorter than usual. We arrived at the library, made our way into the conference room, and found people already gathered to share Deeksha. The air was light and cheery as we greeted one another. More people streamed in. We joined in a circle for meditation, then gave and received blessings.
Every time I share this gift, made available through the Oneness University, my heart is set free. As I open to allow the Divine aspect of self to flow through this physical body, I automatically open to more of this infinitely intelligent and creative energy of the Divine expressing in physical form.
It is like a bulldozer clearing my heart space, making more and more room for love and giving my heart a greater capacity to love freely—allowing my being to express as the Freedom of Love. The clarity of the heart field is equivalent to the clarity of my senses.
“Everyone sees the unseen in proportion to the clarity of their heart.” – Rumi
Now I know the importance of talking to my body. When I talk directly to my subconscious and to the water in my body in a loving and caring way, I shift the environment around the cells. This shift affects the cellular structure.
Science now shows that it is the environment—our emotional and mental state, and our state of consciousness—that affects our biology. Bruce Lipton shares the science behind this in The Biology of Belief. Dr. Masaru Emoto’s work with water demonstrates how positive words, emotions, and classical music restore water to a beautiful crystalline state, while negative words, harsh emotions, and crude music create distortion.
Dancing Light
The next morning, after the evening’s events, I woke to sunshine streaming into the window, filling the kitchen with light. As the sunlight found the crystals hanging there, a union was born—beautiful rainbows danced across the walls. I delighted in the magnificence of the colors created by this meeting of sunbeam and crystal. Overcome with joy, I made my way to the coffee pot to brew a cup for myself and my son, Carl.
In this space of self-awareness, I felt profound peace in my heart as I recognized the significance of this moment.
My autistic son, Carl, who is usually loving and happy, was miserable that morning—cranky and mad, not his usual in-the-moment, joyful self. Normally he delights in making others feel good, shining love on them and telling them how beautiful and wonderful they are. But not this morning.
On Sundays, Carl joins a group of adults with special needs at our local ski hill for a day of downhill fun. That Sunday, he had fallen and bruised his hip and elbow. As I watched him, I allowed him to feel and express his emotions, knowing that this would pass. I simply sat, present, letting him vent his frustration. Being present for him and allowing him to be as he is—that is my gift to him.
Later, it was time to drive him to his day program. When I went outside to start the car, the crisp air touched my cheek and woke me up to this crystal-clear morning. The winter sun reflecting off the white snow sharpened my senses. The purity of the moment took my breath away as I noticed yet another union between the sunbeam and each individual snowflake.
Mesmerized, I watched millions of tiny lights dancing across the snow’s surface. It reminded me of an experience from when I was ten years old and reinforced the knowing: I am Light.
This Dance of Living Light reminded me of when my child self realized that I am Light and also the awareness of It. I remembered witnessing my Light Body floating in an Ocean of Living Light with no beginning and no end. I became aware that I am not only the infinite field of awareness that flows through all life; I am also this field of Living Light, ever-present and waiting to be expressed through this body called “Lorna.”
My heart burst open as I watched the light dancing on the snow, reflecting my Inner Light and reminding me of the purity of my Soul and my Love for all life.
Holding Space for Pain
Back at home, sitting at my computer and reminiscing, I was reminded how incredibly rewarding it is to be present with someone caught up in misery. Words are often not needed; words can add confusion.
I recalled a time when my youngest daughter woke up stressed about life. She vented in a way that was not very kind. It was time to take her to school. I could have been swept up in her unpleasant rant, but instead I reminded myself to be the observer. I told myself, She needs to be heard. Stay calm and present.
As she stepped out of the car, the words “I hate you” rang in my ears.
These words rippled through my body and stung—though only slightly—because they were quickly spun out of my field. There was nothing in me, no judgment, for this statement and its carrier wave to latch onto. I knew she did not truly hate me. She hated the moment, her pain, what was going on in her life. Her anger was her own and had nothing to do with me.
As she left the car and slammed the door, I quickly said, “Have a wonderful day”—and I meant it.
On the drive home I let the event go. About fifteen minutes after I arrived, the phone rang. It was Amber. All she said was, “I love you.”
That was enough. There was no “I’m sorry” or “I wish I hadn’t said that,” no pleading for forgiveness. It wasn’t needed. Amber knew that I knew why she had spoken those words. I understood it was her pain speaking as she processed hurt from someone she had trusted.
There was no way I was going to make it about me or take it personally. I was not going to allow it to hurt my heart or interfere with her knowing how much I love and cherish her.
No matter what is happening in our lives, our love for each other is still present. We often forget that it is not the person we don’t love—it is the behavior. We can unwittingly judge people when we do not see what is driving their behavior.
It is up to me to hold fast to my core frequency and stay true to myself—to open enough that I can see what is driving someone to say or do what they do when they are under the influence of anger, frustration, or pain. I understand that I will always love the people in my life, yet I do not have to accept behavior that comes from a disassociated mental and emotional state, from lower states of consciousness as described by Dr. David Hawkins in his map of consciousness.
Unconditional love does not mean allowing everything. It means I do not hold conditions on the outer world for me to maintain my inner balance. This state of unconditional love is what I strive to maintain, even through my own pain and misery.
Karmic Entanglement and Entity Influence
We have not yet fully broken free from the karmic rebound and quantum entanglements created by eons of abuse that we perpetuate upon ourselves and each other. From child to parent and parent to child we cause pain and misery, often out of sheer lack of awareness. Many are held in the lower brain and lower states of consciousness due to a corrupted emotional body.
It is up to me to notice when I keep myself from ascending—when I allow myself to be held in the magnetic field of Earth through fear, anger, resentment, shame, blame, and guilt. These are the ingredients that maintain the mental prison of my own making. Lower-density entities that traverse time and space know this; they drop thoughts that trigger shame, blame, and guilt, keeping us in a perpetual loop of self-abuse.
Each of us is wise to ask, “Are my thoughts my own?”
All suicides are, in a sense, murders—because anyone having suicidal thoughts is not in their right mind. Their mind and emotions have been hijacked.
Do you want to know how to be free from lower-density entity influence?
They are held in the lower dimensions because of their frequency. They feed on fear, as they are out of resonance with their higher self. No one is kicked out of Heaven; we exclude ourselves when we allow our emotional body to be corrupted.
What has humanity believing that the “veil” is normal? If we know we “fell” and created the veil, what has kept us from figuring out how to reverse the fall and be free of it?
Do you want to reclaim your energy and move back into wholeness?
Do you want to harmonize the corrupted emotional body that drives so-called evil acts?
Awareness is one of our greatest spiritual gifts, and self-awareness is a key to self-mastery.
Spiritual teachings tell us that forgiveness is necessary to restore our capacity to love ourselves and one another. Yet how often do we truly contemplate what we are forgiving?
When someone commits a crime such as rape or murder—acts that seem unforgivable—we must realize that, in most cases, those who commit such horrendous acts have themselves endured horrific abuse. They may be influenced by lower astral entities that feed on distorted emotions. These beings are not in their right mind.
Those who know the truth have often misapplied the justice system in ways that perpetuate dysfunction. It is time for us to come together and create solutions that heal those who are incapacitated.
A Life Review and the Power of Story
During my life review on November 3, 2000—a transit date for me—I was given the opportunity to remember my experiences from three perspectives: the subconscious mind, the conscious mind, and the superconscious mind (the Christ Within). Seeing through the eyes of the Unified Field, perceiving from the consciousness of everyone involved, was an indescribable gift.
I witnessed my own subconscious programming. I saw, as though a chart had been flashed before my inner sight, that every experience is recorded with a specific story attached—a story that has its own frequency and vibrational resonance.
I realized I had been unaware of many of these stories. They ran quietly in the background of my life, held in my attractor field. Each story resonated with my self-concept and with the mental and emotional state I held at the time of the event. Each one was recorded as a distortion, an interference pattern.
It can be difficult to grasp that, in a sense, the “experience” is false—because in the moment we lack full information. We can be free of the past by shifting the frequency of the story once we see it from the Higher Self’s perspective. When all the information becomes available, the experience can be integrated, and we are set free.
When we are not stressed—when we are in vibrational resonance with our true nature and present with the natural world—we can support each other more easily. It is not always easy to remain peaceful given the world we live in, but we can choose not to get caught up in every storm. When we do get swept up in stress or worry, awareness allows us to “shake ourselves off.” In doing so, we remind our body that it is loved.
Three simple “magick” phrases are:
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“I love myself.”
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“I love life.”
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“I accept myself.”
And for others: “I love you.”
Even when we are deeply depressed and cannot feel love, we can still say, “I love and accept myself in my depression.” People might try it and simply witness what happens.
Violence—whether emotional, psychological, or physical—causes pain and fractures the spirit/ego-personality. This disassociated aspect of self is then held out of vibrational resonance with the inner being and Source, which affects how we perceive future experiences.
We can be free of all distortions caused by violence through the frequency of love and the information offered by the higher self.
A Simple Heart Practice
There is an exercise I share with clients that is very beneficial.
When someone has acted out in any imbalanced emotional state—rage, anger, resentment, shame, blame, guilt, and so on—I first set the energetic intention to become the observer. This simple statement is used to restore sovereignty. We set the intention of releasing the energy in our field from any violent event. It is beneficial to set the intention of releasing the energy of the perpetrator and recover energy being leaked into the person, place, event. I encourage the client to put their awareness on their heart, solar plexus, and sacral chakra, then say:
“I love myself when I think of [say the name of the perpetrator].”
I as the mind-spirit-ego-personality known as Sophia-Taniah-Lorna-Lynne become the observed, I then imagine a figure 8 in front of me, my higher self is in the first part of the figure eight and I pull out the wounded child or the wounded adult and place them in the upper circle of the figure eight. The higher self is ever present beaming unconditional love over us and our affairs. As the observer I flow my own compassionate love into the wounded aspect of the ego personality with her corrupted emotional body and have the wounded aspect say:
“I love myself in this anger.”
“I love myself in this pain.”
Sitting here, I remember the dancing rainbows I woke up to earlier. One shift in conscious awareness and both body and mind delight. The sun is brilliant on its own, as are the crystal and the snowflake. Each has its own brilliance, yet when they unite, even greater brilliance is born. This is what life is.
When two people join in their brilliance, a child may be born. The child reflects the brilliance and love of the two who brought this one forth. It is an expansion of love.
Regardless of the situation we are born into, every situation presents an opportunity to become free from karmic rebound. It is up to each of us to recognize this and take the steps needed to resolve the themes running through our life.
A child is LOVE—a spark of Divine Love carried in a tiny heart. Nurture this in each other and in your pets; they too hold this spark of Divine love.
It is good to remember that whatever I say to myself and my children either curses or well wishes. As Dr. Haim Ginott wrote, “Children are like wet cement. Whatever falls on them makes an impression.”
There have been times when I have forgotten this. When my children are not feeling love from me, it is only in awareness that I can shift. It is up to me to shine the light of love from my heart to theirs. In this awareness, I can pause, open my eyes, shift my perception, and see the truth of the moment.
When I choose to shift, I choose to shift my consciousness and move up the scale. When I shift my consciousness, I shift the vibration of the energy radiating from me.
Thoughts and emotions are electromagnetic.
The events of that day were a reminder. Whenever I forget and life becomes stressful—even if I am overcome by emotion—it does not benefit my body to beat myself up. Even in the lower-density emotions created by separation consciousness and creating from the mental plane, I can pause, look at my own pain with the eyes of my soul, and lay down the thoughts that tether me to that pain.
These constricted emotions close my heart and disrupt my wellbeing.
It is up to me to dismiss the various expressions of fear—anger, resentment, and the rest. From my awareness and free will, I can turn toward those I see in pain and misery, hold them in my heart, and let them know how important they are to me. I tell them how much I love them:
“I know you have not always felt this love from me, and for that you have suffered—and I have suffered also. The pain you are holding, I would like to help resolve it, for you and for me. My wish for you is that your heart overflows with the love I have for you. Know that I have always loved you, even in my darkest days. I will always love you, now and forever. And so it is, and so it shall be.”
Your pain is not who you are. Pain is an indication of resistance to the truth of who and what we are. It is up to me—and up to you—to bring all aspects of self back into tune and resonance as one glorified expression of light-love, allowing the expression of our true, authentic self.
You are born of a perfect idea in the Mind of God. Source knows your full potential and, in every moment, holds you in your full glory.
A Closing Declaration
Open your hands and your heart and declare:
I AM the Light of the Heart,
Shining in the darkness of being,
And changing all into the golden treasure
Of the Mind of Christ.I AM projecting this Love
Out onto the world to erase all errors
And to break down all barriers.I AM the power of Infinite Love
Amplifying itself
Until it is victorious, without end.
Know that I love you.
And so it is, and so it shall be.
“May life be overflowing with the joy, glory, and passion of thou being uniquely thou as a multidimensional expression of the All That Is, ever was, and ever will be…
All is One, and all is Love, and loved beyond measure.”
Sending you Light and Love, while holding you in My Light and in My Love.
So be it—and it is so.
Sophia-Taniah-Lorna-Lynne 88
born Lorna Lynne of the House of Borgeson,
named during a sacred water and fire ceremony facilitated by Chief White Buffalo as
“The One That Flows With the River.”
P.S. “And the Thunder Birds came back on Thunder Mountain to shine a light from the Heavens out on the land for all to see.. Ancestors danced and a Grandmothers heart was light .. for the spirit was free and the soul did sing.. 💛💙💛🧝♀️🧚♀️🦅🌸🌈🌟” Lara Wes
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The following information was added on August 10, 2022 after being introduced to the work that Panache Desai is doing.
“The Law of Non-Resistance: Be neutral to evil by comprehending what causes evil. Overcome evil with good/grace/love!” queen-sophia88
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